live☮, laugh☻, love♥.

oh hey, it’s been so long. I’ll just summarise some stuff before I go off.

• Firstly, I’m damn scared of the release of my results. But the release will be at 9am, which means I’ll already be off. So asked Zamani to check it for me and I shall text him about it soon enough,
• I’m excited, I didnt sleep. Because I’m afraid I might not be able to wake up if I sleep. 630 in sp, whatcha expect????
• I’ve got this friend of mine back. After like… so long?
• Today, pillioning on brother’s fazer to school. Thank you mum for blessing and allowing me to get a taste of Fazer.
• My haversack is damn big and heavy.
• I’m gonna miss my home, my bed, my smelly pillow and my vaio.
• Just pray me well go and well back.

& love, you take care, ily. bye.

Some girls are the luckiest sometimes. My friends like Shima, Minji, and many of them. Sometimes, seeing them happy with their love ones makes me feels so ouch. I’m happy for them though. But its hard to explain. Getting to be with your love one is undeniably a happiness. A completion of your life but to go through them is where things actual begun. My mum said, in a r’ship, there’ll always be one of them loving the other more than the other. There was once I was loved so much by this someone. I admit that I felt pain whenever I see him, the pain of hurting him. How can someone want me so badly when the someone I wanted so badly dont feel the same? Life is unfair. Always is. I’m a happy girl now, I wasnt like who I was last time.., I was neglectful to God and my parents but now, when life gets much much harder, mum reminded me of that One who I can always turn and cry to. I never wanted to be the root of one’s problem. If I am, I’m sorry. I’m sorry if your life is pressured right now. I’m sorry if everything seems so f up. But if you could ask me how I feel right now, my dear, I’d love to answer you.

I admit that being with you is not an easy ride but being strong is not something I have to be right now, it’s more of my responsibility because I’ve promised to go through whatever it is with you. It’s just a matter of whether you need me or you dont. & in any case that I’ve never been a good one for you, I’m really sorry.

I’m getting more and more like a sadist these days.

I’m quite pissed with some humans out there. I shan’t mention but seriously, stop swearing like nobody’s watching what you’re saying. To whoever people you’re swearing to, can you just freaking keep it to yourself? Its irritating you know that? Once in awhile is bearable but you’re doing it like its a habit. For God’s sake, stop it. You’re just making yourself sounds like a bitch. Seriously you do and dont be surprise if people start unfollowing you. If you’re gonna swear like there’s no tomorrow, go create another private account and swear all you want. & what you did today great huh? Asking people out and end up keeping silent when I actually waited for you the whole day. Great. Some people are just exagerating about things in life when it’s just nothing at all. I wish these humans know and actually realise that good things in life are gift not something that they could stepped on and take advantage of. They hate each other for doing the same thing, but they didnt realise that both parties are doing the same exact thing. You humans jolly well know that good things is never meant to last. Cherish it while you still can because once this good thing is gone, I mean for good, you’ll f/ing regret it. Seriously, you will. Is that thing called egoism’s too strong that you humans coudnt fight them off for good? I just hoped there’d be this thing called karma which would gladly knock some sense into your heads. Especially when that good thing is a human too, a thing with feelings. Think about it.